It’s inevitable to go through life without faults or problems; we are not without them no matter our status or belief that we are faultless, error or problem free. It’s how we handle them that divide us from others and the outcome of our decisions that lets us know if we have a good grip or a weak grip on our life.
“Awareness of our weaknesses makes the difference in which we are.”
It helps us to realize that we may need to apply more pressure in order to prevent a fall or to maybe lean gracefully to one side or the other etc…. I know this because; I have had lots of falls in my life. Ha Ha!! I can be extremely clumsy. In fact, I know "Murphy's Law" really well…just like most girls do. My friends have bought me sippy cups to drink out of, made up nick names like “Messy Marvin" and family members have made jokes and wise cracks. But the sad part is some of the accidents are out of my control. On several occasions, due to my illness, and I’m sure other’s with Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) can agree with me on this particular subject, I have fallen, dropped spilled and broke things without any control due to fatigue, unforeseen muscle spasms, crippling and freezing of body parts. Because you can’t visually see the deforming in my fingers or body parts, with the type of arthritis I have which is non-deforming to the joints, as you would someone with RA, people just assume you are fine and normal. It’s incredibly frustrating for people to think you’re not paying attention or just being a ditz. I don’t know how many times I have been made fun of. But as I said, it’s how you handle it. Sometimes, I’m less sensitive and able to just laugh it off and other times it really hurts my feelings. Two Friday’s ago, I was having coffee with my mom and I was trying to hold the coffee cup the same way she was “Thumb and first finger” and I almost dropped a very nice coffee cup, which was part of my china she gave to me as a Christmas gift. My hand totally crippled or froze up. I couldn't get it to function properly..damn that hand. I was trying to put the coffee cup back on the saucer and I had to take my left hand to sit the coffee cup back into place, so I wouldnt break the cup. I shouldn't have tried this at all because I know better; I know I have to couple it instead of trying to be pretty. My mom never even noticed what was happening and the event propelled a funny story about my late father and my husband that is so funny and I would love to share it with you.
When I was younger my clumsiness was much, much worse because I was unaware of what was happening and didn’t know I needed to take precautionary measures to prevent these accident spells, such as holding things a particular way. I remember going to the cabinets to get a plate and my wrist feeling like I broke it and my fingers feeling so stiff I had no flexibility at all. So needless to say I broke lots of plates, glass wear, good dishes and I almost fell down the stairs at the altar after saying “I do.” I believe that was pure clumsiness due to nervousness. Ha Ha!!
Before Mike and I took the leap of faith, or should I say, before I took the fall of faith, my father told Mike he needed to have a serious conversation with him before he decided to marry me. Mike was extremely apprehensive about what he was about to learn but he sat and listened to what my father had to tell him. With a serious look in his eye, his red hair pasted back to one side, and a scowled brow, my father said “Son there is something you must know about my daughter, something that is very important to the safety and financial well-being of your future with her.” Mike feeling a lump in his throat and probably one in his stomach swallows hard and prepares for what my father was about to tell him:
When I was younger my clumsiness was much, much worse because I was unaware of what was happening and didn’t know I needed to take precautionary measures to prevent these accident spells, such as holding things a particular way. I remember going to the cabinets to get a plate and my wrist feeling like I broke it and my fingers feeling so stiff I had no flexibility at all. So needless to say I broke lots of plates, glass wear, good dishes and I almost fell down the stairs at the altar after saying “I do.” I believe that was pure clumsiness due to nervousness. Ha Ha!!
Before Mike and I took the leap of faith, or should I say, before I took the fall of faith, my father told Mike he needed to have a serious conversation with him before he decided to marry me. Mike was extremely apprehensive about what he was about to learn but he sat and listened to what my father had to tell him. With a serious look in his eye, his red hair pasted back to one side, and a scowled brow, my father said “Son there is something you must know about my daughter, something that is very important to the safety and financial well-being of your future with her.” Mike feeling a lump in his throat and probably one in his stomach swallows hard and prepares for what my father was about to tell him:
“Do NOT buy glass or anything breakable for your kitchen or house, you need to go to the Army Navy store to buy for your home “Plastics” everything needs to be Plastic” in your home. Do not buy any expensive dishes, she will break all of them.” Ha Ha!!
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Honey, I want youn to know that you are like a
Sister to me and Mike like a brother. You two share such a special bond that god has created. I am so blessed to have you both in my life as 1st cousins. I ask god everyday to keep you and Mikes spririts uplifted. I wish we you were three were closer in North Richland Hills, where we could help each other out and just talk. I remember the fun we had when I lived with you guys and was able to visit more often. We never know what Gods plans or reasonings are. I can't even imagine you being gone when God Calls for you and what legacy you are leaving behind in helping others. That is what you have always been about. I could really see your suffering last weekend and yet you kept going and going like the Engergizer Bunny, showing the Devil that you are a strong faithed women and child of God. I also seen Mike hurting inside and told him I am always here for you guys through thick and thin. Stay strong my love. Break the damn glass wear if need be. In church we learned that many call 911 for medical emergencies or for the police. but, in everday battles most for get to call 111, which are the 3 number one people in our lives. The father, Son and Wholy Spirit. Now you know my Gay Self will be using that in my life to others. simply because 911 will give you a busy line, place you on hold or transfer you to another agency. 111 won't do that as you go directly to the source above. Last night I met the girls at the Lodge and really had them going with some tools I learned in bible Study last week. They would say "why would you do that". My response is BECAUSE I CAN or BECAUSE I WANT TOO.. Take care and hope you get feeling better soon. Talk with ya soon. Love Your Cousin Ricky
Thanks Rick for all your support! I'm impressed that you recognize what I try to accomplish with pushing forward even when it gets hard.
It's nice to know you don't take me for granted. People tend to focus on your faults rather than your strengths. I guess those are the ones that don't really like or love me but thats all the more reason to keep standing strong.
I see it in you too, I know you want to make a difference in your life and in others as well. Keep up the great work, I can tell it's helping you enrich and improve your life.
The book The Secret, "What you put out into the universe is what you get back."
We have had lots of fun together and I hope to continue to make more memories.
Love you,
Jenece
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